23f, 148lbs, 4’10"
Conditions: Type 1 diabetes, chronic pain syndrome, DDD, arthritis, GAD, MDD, chronic folliculitis/abscesses.
Medications: Topamax 10mg, Doxy 100mg, Keflex 500mg, Zofran 4mg, Buspirone 7.5mg, Omega-3 1300mg.
I’m stuck in a repeating cycle where I feel exhausted, but when I lie down, my mind starts racing. I have an intense, irrational fear of staying still because I’m terrified of lucid dreaming (I read somewhere that staying motionless for 15 minutes triggers it). I start fidgeting to prevent it, which makes my heart race, and then I feel like my blood sugar is crashing. I check my pump and it’s fine, so I watch YouTube for about 30 minutes to distract myself, but then the whole cycle just repeats. It’s getting so bad and I’m so anxious that I’m considering medical help.
I took my Buspirone three times today for anxiety. About two hours before this started, I took my Topamax, both antibiotics, the omega supplement, and an old hydrocodone/acetaminophen 10-325mg for pain from an abdominal abscess and cellulitis. I also took 10ml of children’s liquid Benadryl (12.5mg per 5ml) about an hour ago to try to settle down, but it’s not working.
What should I do? Please be kind, I’m really panicking and I’m scared because I can’t sleep. Should I head to the emergency room??